The Blueprint of Control — A First-Hand Account of Ti-Se

Part One: Introverted Logic (Ti)

First of all, I eagerly analyze everything I encounter, and I readily organize and categorize it. I don’t stop to think about the fact that it needs to be broken down and analyzed; I just do it, constantly and immediately. I categorize everything: from people and formal-logical laws to objects and theories. I do this silently, and speaking about it is a bit difficult for me because, to me, analyzing my own base function feels almost sacrilegious. The systems in my head often occupy my mind much more than any feelings.

In fact, I don't really have feelings as such; instead, there are triggers that evoke them—some external action. When I lack an emotional rush, I use my internal manipulative schemes to go out and get what's missing. This drains my energy and nerves, whereas I wish it would just happen naturally in my life. But that’s just a small detour from the main topic.

By the way, I never get lost in my own schemes; I always find the beginning and the end. Everything is built so precisely in my head that I don't even need to recall forgotten details or relearn old things (skills, concepts, laws, etc.). Cause-and-effect is one of my favorite pursuits. I love finding a phenomenon and uncovering its origins. I like studying a rule and its emergence—specifically, the structural bridge between the origin and the established rule. It is an insatiable thirst for knowledge. Sometimes I get tired of it and crave something intense and vibrant in life, beyond the general boredom and grayness.

I distribute mental work on a scale from the lightest to the heaviest load. My workday is rationalized from the very first to the very last minute, and any outside interference only irritates me because only I know what is best and most convenient for me. That is a fact. Even the most authoritative person in my life has absolutely no right to interfere with my internal routines for solving various tasks.

I don't read instructions, and I consider that a Ti stereotype. Why would I need a manual if I’ve known the equipment inside out, having worked with it practically since childhood? There is nothing simpler for me than figuring out the functions of a washing machine without an instruction manual. Even on the machine itself, there are directions and indicator "beacons" for the lazy.

I divide my desk into categories: here are folders with documents, here are loose papers, this spot is for drinking coffee, this spot must not be touched under any circumstances, and that pile over there contains old, useless papers that can be reused for other tasks.

I am incredibly meticulous when dealing with something I don’t understand. I am terrifyingly nitpicky. I will ask about every turn, clarifying every single action to hit the target with maximum precision. There is nothing better than knowing every single corner of the field you are operating in. And, dare I remind you, I don't consciously think about this in daily life. It just naturally happens.

I loved tidying up my desk and my room solely because it was an excellent excuse to classify things: pens here, notebooks there, small electronics in another drawer, and hygiene products like shower gels in the fifth drawer. And honestly, it’s so convenient and satisfying: everything is in its place, and you never have to wonder where a needed item is. You chose its spot beforehand, and that's where it stays.

Another important fact: I do not like explaining my actions or conclusions. I just don't. Sometimes there is no point in explaining something to someone. They won't understand, and then I’ll have to explain it all over again. So why bother, when it’s simpler to just go ahead and do it? Or to say nothing at all. However, if I am interested in making sure someone understands, I will go in circles for as long as it takes to get the result, ensuring that I have planted the exact information into their head that needed to be there.

Formal, businesslike communication is natural to me. I can maintain it for a very long time if the other person keeps their distance. I am prone to a certain pretentiousness, mannerism, and elaborateness that is not typical of today's youth. I respect traditions and am always ready to follow them—but only if they fit into my system of beliefs.

Part Two: Extraverted Sensing (Se)

Secondly, to me, Se is primarily a tool for manipulation. Multi-faceted and multi-functional. I love using it, and my base function only reinforces the activity of my creative function. It’s always satisfying when you have not only an unyielding foundation of knowledge and priorities beneath you, but also a tool of total influence over someone or something. This gives me self-confidence, immense strength, and... well, I generally believe that justified self-confidence is the key to success and external attention.

I enjoy competing, especially in areas where I have only recently started to excel. But victory itself is not my ultimate goal. Victory is merely the result of a laborious and, most importantly, fascinating process. I know how to press on opponents' weak spots, and I actually enjoy doing it—playing out various schemes of pressure and, to be specific, volitional influence. This gives me pleasure, and I like gathering this information through trial. There are no errors in these trials, because it is a process, an experience, and a source of new knowledge and opportunities to control this aspect. And of course, I only use this when I see a clear benefit, interest, or some kind of profit.

Sometimes, when I'm bored, I tend to provoke and act aggressively, to the point of completely decimating someone's boundaries at once, just so they realize the scale of the conflict I can create. I can behave with restraint and hold back my pushiness if there are reasons to do so, or if I am simply not interested in the situation. I act only when I am interested, or when I see an unjustified attempt to suppress me.

I can rightfully be considered a person who is very difficult to offend. Someone would have to systematically and persistently push my buttons for a long time to achieve even a minor reaction. For the most part, I am speaking in a positive key here, not a negative one. First of all, I respect people, value their work, and respect their social status even if they hold a low position (the main things are their responsibility, rational approach, composure, and attentiveness—salary and high titles are far from being true indicators).

I am ready to admit right now that I enjoy manipulating people; however, I do not use dirty or immoral tactics in my manipulations. Such destructive moves are reserved only for those who disrespect me or are hostile towards me. Fear me, cower in your corner—I surpass you both in intellect and in my methods of influencing you, because you are my enemy, you are pathetic, and therefore, I will show no mercy. I can sense an enemy's fear, and I like feeling it.

Sometimes I am inclined to play arbiter of someone else’s fate, but only out of curiosity and interest. I like conquering others' bodies and controlling them to an extent: one moment it belongs to someone else, and the next it is yours, in your hands. And I love sacrificial resistance, the game of hide-and-seek, for I know how to be cunning.

I am capable of experiencing wild rage and fury—these are precisely the emotions I can display without any difficulty. At times, it is hard for me to hide my irritation and my true attitude toward a person. It is painfully obvious when I want to bury someone six feet under.

I absolutely hate it when people touch my things. This is the only thing capable of instantly throwing me off balance. Want to become my enemy and get your ass handed to you? Be rude to me or take my phone without asking, and you will instantly find yourself on my black list, sitting under a hot interrogation lamp.

I sincerely do not understand those who turn their noses up at violent actions. But if we are being honest, truly unjustified violence is, first and foremost, a lack of self-respect. Why pick a fight when nobody is touching you? I am much more oriented toward defense than attack. I will protect my own to the bitter end, regardless of whether my person is right or wrong. No one touches them except me, because only I have the right to nitpick and punish them. And I only like to punish for things that are truly serious.

Source: S. Ionkin