Navigating a Se-Driven World as an LII
There is no actual understanding of what "status" means—it’s like an empty phrase, nothing to "grasp" onto in order to feel or comprehend it. I am a human being, and everyone else is too. How do you determine that someone is "cooler" or "higher in rank"? What does that even mean?
Formal indicators like job titles, wealth, or age hold no significance for me; I don't evaluate these parameters or take them into account.
I have no inner grasp of the value of luxury brands, nor any desire to possess them. Once, I was gifted an expensive watch. I purposefully took turns wearing it and my regular one, examining it, touching it, trying to sense what changes inside me from owning a costly item. I realized—I feel absolutely nothing. It’s like a blind spot...
Any stories involving violence and humiliation are agonizing to me, even within a work of fiction. I do not comprehend the concept of "using force for the greater good."
Sometimes it's difficult to assess what "real danger" is. I might go for a walk at night in an unfamiliar city. The people around me get scared, but internally I just don't get it—"What could possibly happen?" Conversely, I can get terrified by some minor thing; for instance, I am afraid of dogs of any size, I'm scared of riding with reckless drivers, and I don't watch horror movies.
It is exhausting to defend my interests "head-on." I have neither the desire nor the energy for direct confrontation; I will always look for some kind of "detour." Even in sports, I don't experience that sense of excitement, the desire to be the best, to come first, or to win. There is no need to "win at all costs."
I feel a drive to achieve a result, but no drive to outdo others. An internal question echoes: "Well, what do I need that for? Will it make me a better person?"
How do I support myself? How do I withstand societal pressure?
The hardest part is accepting this within myself and leaning on my "Foundation"—my strengths, the tandem of my Ti (Introverted Logic) and Ne (Extraverted Intuition).
"A wise man won't climb the mountain—a wise man will go around it."
This is my primary way of solving life's problems. And it works! My method is to find a detour, to bypass direct "confrontation." I can perfectly see the consequences of actions, as well as the potential of people and situations. This is the "superpower" that helps me get my way and resolve everything without putting unnecessary strain on my vulnerable function. I can "wear them down by attrition," prove my point, defend myself, and bring forward arguments (via Ti). I feel comfortable resolving issues within the "legal framework." I foresee many problems in advance and try to "lay down some straw" to cushion the fall, insuring myself against risks (via the Ti-Ne tandem).
It is vital for me to feel stability and confidence through my Si (Introverted Sensing). This gives me a sense of strength, reliability, safety, and health—the feeling that "my body is capable" and that I can handle anything.
This is the "fuel" that allows me to stay active and move forward. Most importantly, when everything is stable and comfortable on the Si front, the vulnerable function doesn't "hurt" as badly; the "blows" to it wound me less, without shaking my foundation or throwing me off track.