Nina B. (SLE) - Heightened attention to objects and details

I am an observant person. You walk around the grounds and of course you notice what kinds of houses are around: a huge house—a good solid brick one; that one over there—run-down; and that one—utter junk.

Or in a village, you naturally notice: “Aha, look at the house they’ve built here—stone, beautiful, with garages, with proper access—well, a classy house. That’s a house you could live in. And all the other little houses are wooden, tiny little things…” You walk along a village street and you pick out a couple of houses “for yourself”: if you were to choose, it would only be a big one.

I’m observant. I walk down the street and immediately see everything: where each shop is, what the road surface is like, the potholes, what cars are coming toward me…

So I’m walking to the garden. I always take the same road to the garden. From a distance I notice that the road I take is all potholes, dug up! And if necessary, I instantly rearrange in my head how to get around the mud. I don’t even think about it. I arrive at the garden: “Aha, the neighbor has built a huge house. Last time there was no door, now there’s a door. Aha, this barrel—he stole my big barrel… Yesterday it was standing there, today it’s already here. Yesterday there was no pit, and today he’s already dug one.” I grasp all of this instantly.

In a shop—one department, a second, a third—I come in and look: the salespeople have been moved around. By the goods I can see that an item used to be here and now it’s been rearranged. I remember where all the goods used to stand, and I’ll remember where they’re moved the next time.

If I see a well-dressed person walking down the street, I think: “Ah, how I like that!” I like stylish things: stiletto boots… If I were younger, I’d wear them. I love everything beautiful, bright colors: red, white, black, green, crimson, turquoise. There’s this whole gray-black mass walking along, and then there’s someone beautifully, brightly dressed—you notice them immediately! It makes me happy! Beauty grabs you!