Svetlana Ch. (SEE) - "I Want!"

If I get the feeling that I want something… I want it!

I need to catch the flow. I move in that direction, the music is loud, I feel the energy. I can do anything, I will do everything.

I’m in the flow. Already here, when the movement has started, I need it — and I will achieve it. Someone might feel uncomfortable or unhappy, but I will get there. Once it starts, you can’t stop it! Even if people say, “Don’t!” — you’ll still go and do it.

Before, I would rush ahead without looking back. I need it, I want it, I’m carried away — don’t stand in my way! And talking to me like, “You need this — you don’t need that…” — who needs that?! If my parents tried to slow me down, the world would just collapse. I cease to exist, I’m nobody, nothing, with no name! Even my body stops feeling, the stress is overwhelming. I have to “reassemble myself” all over again.