Anna M. (ILI) - Constant Analysis of Actions

Nothing is ever accidental. Everything follows from something. There is always a reason for what has happened. It’s not always possible to see it, because there may not be enough data, but there is always a cause for everything.

Analysis is ongoing all the time. I know that a person has committed some act. I don’t understand why. I ask them: who are their parents, where are they from, what have they been doing—everything. I put all this together, and then it becomes clear to me why they committed that act. Or what state they were in, what was happening to them, why they did it—that is, this analysis is constantly going on for me. Of course, when there is no information, there is nothing to analyze—it’s like floundering in a void, with nothing to hold on to. I need a lot of information.

Then it can all be structured and understood. It’s very important for me to understand why all this is happening, where it begins, what it starts from. I ask myself, “Why do you need this?” So that I can predict what will happen next.

If I know a person—especially if that person is part of my circle, my family, for example my daughter-in-law—it is very important for me to understand what kind of person she is, how she lived, how she was brought up. Because if I don’t understand, I might get angry with her. And I cannot be angry with her, because my son loves her. But if I understand why she acts the way she does, I can forgive her, accept her, and understand her. In order to forgive, you need to understand the person.