Irina V. (IEI) - Perception of Time; Waisted time; Inertia and Being Late

I can imagine time as an hourglass, in which the sand pours down very quickly, flows away quickly — that is my image of time. I regret that time is passing. I worry before every birthday. It seems to me that another year has passed. And what then? And — nothing. Constant analysis. I am anxious about my age.

<...> I am an absolutely unpunctual person. I don’t know how to calculate time; I’m always late everywhere. I seem to be aware of it. I’m not completely irresponsible.

I realize this, but I can’t do anything about it. I need to leave, but my hair isn’t dry yet, I’ll finish watching the program. At the same time, when I’m standing there waiting for someone for ten or fifteen minutes, I start to get very angry.

I begin to project this situation: I let people down in the same way. Over time, I’m not very good with time.