Alexey K. (EIE) - Managing the mood of others

I work with energies almost all the time: sometimes I change them, sometimes I absorb them, sometimes I give them away.

<...> When I see someone in a bad mood, I feel like I need to go and help them, first by talking. When I help, I feel a kind of outflow of energy from myself — I give my energy to that person. And then, when they calm down and start to feel better, at that moment I feel a sort of influx of energy, and it becomes several times stronger than what I gave away.

I can use this received energy for different purposes. For example, to write a book or compose a poem. I get this strong sense of wholeness from that surge of energy, and I feel like I can do a lot — but I can’t sleep. I just have such a big influx of energy that I don’t know where to put it; I usually have to release it somehow. I write some poem — I already have a bunch of them, and I don’t even know what to do with them. I’m constantly channeling this energy somewhere.

<...> You can feel it when an aggressive person starts pushing at you. You say something to them — redirect their energy somewhere else. You tell them something they absolutely do not expect, you feel their confusion, you start talking to them, and for some reason they immediately yield instead of continuing their aggression. I just start shifting their aggressive energy somewhere else. I feel that it’s hard for them, that they need to “drain” it somewhere, so I suggest they write a poem. People can create incredible things in moments like that, honestly. And when I manage to help someone like this, I get filled up from these moments — unbelievably filled, I feel complete.

<...> When I can’t help and the person is suffering, I absorb that too — I start to feel the same sensations they do. But when I do help, I get a several-fold increase of good, strong energy in return. I help, and the energy comes back to me many times over. That’s always how it happens.

<...> Sometimes it happens like this: a bunch of people are walking together, everyone is arguing, and there are moments when their collective energy is very strong — there are these bursts! I can’t absorb that; on the contrary, it makes me tense. So I try to sort of take the lead in the group, give them my energy, and they fill me with emotions. In those moments, I calm down, I feel lighter, there’s this warmth in my heart, but then it somehow moves into my head, and there’s a kind of surge there, and warmth spreads throughout my whole body. After that, I feel like I could move mountains — not just one, but many.

<...> I can gather energy just by looking at some landscape. This energy isn’t joyful — it just flows into me, and whatever I make it into, that’s what it becomes. I can turn it into aggression, get angry and all that, or I can sort of bring it into myself so that it becomes warm, and then a smile immediately appears on my face. That I can do.